Frank Ocean opens up about sexuality
The Odd Future crooner reveals that his first love was a man in Tumblr post
Addressing widespread rumours about his orientation, the singer and Odd Future affiliate has admitted in a post on his Tumblr that his first love was a man.
Ocean's post began saying that he had originally planned to publish the open letter on the liner notes for his forthcoming new album 'Channel Orange', but had decided to go public with it now to address speculation. He prefaced his statement saying he hopes that “the babies born these days will inherit less of the bullshit than we did".
He wrote: "4 summers ago, I met somebody. I was 19 years old. He was too. We spent that summer, and the summer after, together. Everyday almost. And on the days we were together, time would glide. Most of the day I'd see him, and his smile. Sleep I would often share with him. By the time I realised I was in love, it was malignant. It was hopeless. There was no escaping, no negotiating to the women I had been with, the ones I cared for and thought I was in love with.
"I sat there and told my friend how I felt. I wept as the words left my mouth. I grieved for then. Knowing I could never take them back for myself. He patted my back. He said kind things. He did his best, but he wouldn't admit the same. He had to go back inside soon. It was late and his girlfriend was waiting for him upstairs. He wouldn't tell the truth about his feelings for me for another 3 years. I felt like I'd only imagined reciprocity for years.
I kept up a peculiar friendship with him because I couldn't imagine keeping up my life without him. I struggled to master myself and my emotions. I wasn't always successful.Ocean went on to explain how the process of making music had given him the strength to admit who he really is. He added, "I don't know what happens now, and that's alrite. I don't have any secrets I need kept any more. There's probably some small shit still, but you know what I mean. I was never alone, as much as it felt like it. As much as I still do sometimes. I never was. I don't think I ever could be. Thanks. To my first love, I'm grateful for you.
"Grateful that even though it wasn't what I hoped for and even though it was never enough, it was. Some things never are. And we were. I won't forget you. I won't forget the summer. I'll remember who I was when I met you. I'll remember who you were and how we've both changed and stayed the same.
"To my mother. You raised me strong. I know I'm only brave because you were first. So thank you. All of you. For everything good. I feel like a free man. If I listen closely, I can hear the sky falling too."
Odd Future's Tyler, The Creator, who has himself been accused of homophobia, took to his Twitter feed in solidarity with his friend, saying: "My Big Brother Finally Fucking Did That. Proud Of That Nigga Cause I Know That Shit Is Difficult Or Whatever. Anyway. I'm A Toilet."
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