"I was angry, cynical, and had this deep sadness like an anchor dragging everywhere I go," says singer
Lady Gaga has revealed that she suffered from depression last year.
The singer, who released her ‘Artpop’ album last November, told Harper’s Bazaar that she had become “exhausted” and suffered from a “deep sadness” towards the end of 2013.
She said: “I became very depressed at the end of 2013. I was exhausted fighting people off. I couldn’t even feel my own heartbeat. I was angry, cynical, and had this deep sadness like an anchor dragging everywhere I go. I just didn’t feel like fighting anymore. I didn’t feel like standing up for myself one more time – to one more person who lied to me.”
Revealing how she overcame her problems, the singer added: “January 1, I woke up, started crying again, and I looked in the mirror and said, ‘I know you don’t want to fight. I know you think you can’t, but you’ve done this before. I know it hurts, but you won’t survive this depression’.
“I really felt like I was dying – my light completely out. I said to myself, ‘Whatever is left in there, even just one light molecule, you will find it and make it multiply. You have to for you. You have to for your music. You have to for your fans and your family’.”
“Depression doesn’t take away your talents – it just makes them harder to find,” she concluded. “But I always find it. I learned that my sadness never destroyed what was great about me. You just have to go back to that greatness, find that one little light that’s left. I’m lucky I found one little glimmer stored away.”
Last month, Lady Gaga announced plans to bring her artRAVE tour to Britain this October. She will play four arena dates in Manchester, Glasgow, London and Birmingham. Starting in Birmingham on October 15, the tour will then finish at London’s O2 Arena on October 23.
Lady Gaga will play:
Birmingham NIA (October 15)
Glasgow Hydro (19)
Manchester Phones 4U Arena (21)
London O2 Arena (23)