The actor watched 30 films in total over three days
Shia LaBeouf has discussed his recent public art piece where he watched all of his own films without interruption in a movie theatre over the course of three days.
LaBeouf watched 30 films in total from November 10 to November 12 at the Angelika Film Center in New York, with the entire thing open to the public and livestreamed online.
Speaking on the NewHive art website, LaBeouf says that he feared a negative reaction from his fellow cinema-goers, but ultimately “walked out loving myself”.
“I always go into these things every time thinking ‘what if they light my hair on fire?’ This is a genuine fear of mine. I think people hate me. That’s just what goes on in my head. And all I want to do is be liked… I walked out loving myself. Not in some grandiose, you’re fucking awesome way, but in like, you’re a part of a community. You’re a part of this human thing. You’re in this human thing. I’ve always felt as though, ‘I’m just an animal in this human thing. And I’ll play the human game. I’ll wear the human mask.’ But coming out of there, it’s the first time I’ve actually felt part of this —it was very humanising for me. I walked out loving myself. And I don’t think I was the only one to feel that.”
He added: “I feel lighter today. I feel love today. It’s as simple as this: I used to order my coffee and when they’d say, ‘Hey what’s your name?’ I’d say James, because I didn’t want them to say my name… I would never claim my name. And today it’s just something different, it’s as simple as that. And it’s not through thought it’s just ‘that’s me’ and I’m cool with that. It’s the first time really in my life, before the other shows, because all of the other shows never changed my coffee order name. This shit changed my coffee order name, which in turn, changed my sense of self.”
Despite his new found sense of self, the actor added that the event made him reflect on some of his poorer movies: “When the movies started getting shit and [the audience] knew that I felt it too, it was the shared secret that we all had… not just because I’m in it… I’m in the same boat as you, I’m a viewer in this and this is hard for me to watch too. In fact, I’m gonna go take a nap ‘cause I hate myself, not ‘cause I’m tired, but because I’m dying right now. And nobody had a problem with that.”
“[During] Transformers 2 they could feel when I sunk in my seat. That’s not a performative thing. That’s me going through some kind of crisis. And I’m not the only one. I remember right before I fell asleep I looked next to me and the guy next to me was falling asleep. You can see it on the screenshot we’re both asleep. And the guy behind us is asleep.”
LaBeouf also described how he encouraged the audience members to not shy away from approaching him: “There was one point where someone came up and took a selfie. And this woman said, ‘Hey you can’t do that it’s against the rules.’ And everybody thought I wasn’t talking. But I said, ‘There are no rules in here.’ It was important that we didn’t set limitations.”