Blink-182 drummer Travis Barker has opened up about the drug addiction that he says left him feeling suicidal.
Barker says his lowest point came in 2004 while on tour with his band. The band arrived in Australia for a series of live dates but Barker was so hooked on painkiller Oxycodone that he was unable to even make the first gig.
“Back then I was living very much day-to-day,” Barker explained in a new interview with Billboard. “My attitude was like, ‘Shit, I could be dead tomorrow.’ I grew up losing my mom at a young age, being shot at at a young age. Doing lots of drugs. If it was my time, it was my time, but then it wasn’t until when I had my kids – everything changed.”
Asked what his lowest point in life was, Barker talks more about the ill-fated Australian tour 11 years ago. “I was so addicted to Oxycodone, and I had a security that would actually sleep during the day and then stay up at night to make sure I was breathing. That was pretty pathetic,” he said.
“My bones were so brittle from so much painkiller use. I had this moment when I got to Europe for that tour where I really identified myself as a dumpster. And I wasn’t proud. I was scared. I had to call Mark [Hoppus, Blink-182 bandmate] and say, ‘Hey, man. I’m like borderline suicidal. I’m going crazy. I need to go home.’ Like not even one show had started. I’d been there two days. I hadn’t slept one day.”
Barker’s memoir Can I Say: Living Large, Cheating Death & Drums Drums Drums will be published on October 20 by William Morrow Publishers.
Skiba joined the group earlier this year after frontman Tom DeLonge parted ways with the band. Hoppus and bandmate Travis Barker announced their split when the singer allegedly refused to enter the studio and record a new album with them. The pair later claimed that they’re going through a “friendly divorce” with the exiled musician.