The Foo Fighters frontman says it's often too painful
Cobain passed away in 1994 and Grohl explains that since his friend and bandmate’s death, he hasn’t been able to listen to Nirvana’s albums because it’s “so personal”.
“For years I couldn’t even listen to any music, let alone a Nirvana song,” he told GQ. “When Kurt died, every time the radio came on, it broke my heart. I don’t put Nirvana records on, no. Although they are always on somewhere. I get in the car, they’re on. I go into a shop, they’re on. For me, it’s so personal.”
“I remember everything about those records; I remember the shorts I was wearing when we recorded them or that it snowed that day. Still, I go back and find new meanings to Kurt’s lyrics,” he continued.
“Not to seem revisionist, but there are times when it hits me. You go, ‘Wow, I didn’t realise he was feeling that way at the time’.
“Nirvana, for me, was a personal revolution, I was 21. You remember being 21? You think you know it all. But you don’t. I thought I knew everything. And being in Nirvana showed me how little I really knew.
“They were some of the greatest highs of my life, but also, of course, one of the biggest lows.”
Earlier this month, former Nirvana bassist Krist Novoselic also spoke of how he coped with the death of the frontman.
“I took a long time,” he said of coping with Cobain’s death. “It was so traumatic. I was depressed from it. It had terrible effects. I had other things in my life at that point that held me back, too. But in the end, time healed it and you end up dealing with it.
“Then, eventually, you come to terms with things… but I don’t know, really. You just have to try to be positive.”
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