Tatiana Lee issues a statement on NME.COM...
The wife of Feeder drummer JON LEE has issued a statement speaking of her deep sense of loss following his tragic suicide last week (January 7).
As reported yesterday on NME.COM, officers at the Miami-Dade Police Department revealed that 33-year-old Lee made a desperate final phone call to his wife, Tatiana, before hanging himself from the rafters of his garage with a dog chain.
Now, in an emotional statement, posted on the NME.COM tribute [url=]message board, Tatiana says that “no one will ever know” the reasons why he committed suicide.
The statement reads: “There are no words to describe the immense pain and suffering my children and I, as well as Jon’s Mum and Dad are going through at this most difficult and tragic time. There are also no words to describe what an extraordinary human being he was, and will continue to be in our hearts.
“Jon was the most loving, generous, kind, beautiful man there ever will be. He was my best friend, my husband, my love, my breath, my entire life. He was the most wonderful father in the world and our children meant the world to him.
“The world has lost Jon Lee, drummer from [a][/a], but I have lost my Jon, my children have lost their father, his parents have lost their son, Andrew lost his brother and many of us have lost a wonderful friend.
“No one will ever know why Jon needed to go, but that was his decision and as much hurt as I feel, I will respect his wishes so that he may find the peace he was looking for. I want to go with him but cannot. He left me two beautiful children to take care of and I will do that, for Jon, for Nick and for Cameron.
“I am deeply disgusted with some of the very false, untrue and appalling publications I have read in regards to my husband. He was a wonderful man, husband and father. Jon was everything. We had problems as does anyone else in this world, but at the end of the day the love we had for each other kept us together.
“I believe that for everyone in this world, there is someone who is meant to be theirs forever. Jon and I are soul mates. We always said we were invincible and that we would always be together. And we are together forever.
“We are the only ones who know our love and it belongs to us and no one else. I will spend the rest of my life loving and taking care of our children because that is what he would have wanted me to do.
“With every breath that I take, I will hurt but I will also have peace, for I know that with every breath I take I will be one second closer to being with him again.
I thank the fans for the love and support you have given our families, it is very much needed and appreciated.
“I ask that my husband be respected and remembered for the beautiful person that he was so that he may finally be in peace. Please do it for Jon. Do not shed more tears for he liked laughter.
“My children and I have had our services in Miami for our Jon and therefore will not be at his service this coming Friday (January 18) in Wales. We are all suffering very much and cannot bear anymore. Our hearts will be there with him, his family and friends. I ask that after the service on Friday, our families are afforded some peace, respect and a time to heal. I ask that you let my love rest in peace.”
Tatiana also penned an open letter to Jon, which reads:
Thank you for the most beautiful memories of my life, for our children’s life, for true love, partnership, friendship, for the laughter and for the things only the two of us know. I will love you with every beat of my broken heart, as I always have and always will. We are invincible. Nothing will part us. I will see you soon, my love, my life and my world. My heart is with you forever. There is only you for me and me for you. Forever.
Rest in peace my angel; I am with you all the way.
Unforgettable…that’s what you are.
I love you. Forever. Love waits and I wait for the day to see you again. And it is then that I will have peace.
Your wife for eternity,