John Lennon’s killer Mark Chapman says he feels ‘more and more shame’ every year

The former Beatle was shot dead in 1980

A transcript of Mark Chapman, the man who killed John Lennon, has revealed that he feels “more and more shame” every year since he shot dead the former Beatle in 1980.

Chapman was denied parole for the tenth time at the Wende correctional facility in August. His appeal was previously turned down in 2016.

He was jailed for 20 years to life after he shot Lennon at the entrance to his New York home in December 1980.

“Thirty years ago I couldn’t say I felt shame and I know what shame is now,” Chapman said in a transcript from the parole hearing, according to The Guardian. “It’s where you cover your face, you don’t want to, you know, ask for anything.”

John Lennon and Yoko Ono

Chapman told parole board members he still thinks about how Lennon was “incredible” to him earlier that day.

He also said he had been going through an internal “tug of war” of whether to go ahead with the shooting.

Chapman added: “I was too far in. I do remember having the thought of, ‘Hey, you have got the album now. Look at this, he signed it, just go home.’ But there was no way I was just going to go home.”

The 63-year-old claimed he sought notoriety and felt no animosity for the late singer, even though he loaded his gun with more lethal hollow-point bullets.

At the time, the state board of parole said releasing Chapman would not only “tend to mitigate the seriousness of your crime” but also endanger public safety because someone might try to harm him out of anger, revenge or to gain notoriety.

Chapman will have to wait another two years before he applies for parole once more.