Kid Cudi has revealed that he has entered a rehabilitation centre after suffering from “depression and suicidal urges”.
The Cleveland rapper recently made headlines after calling out Drake and former mentor Kanye West in a series of tweets. Initially West described himself as “hurt”, telling Cudi that he “birthed” him. However, Kanye later offered an olive branch to Cudi, calling him his “brother” and the “most influential artist of the past 10 years”.
Now in a statement posted to Facebook, Cudi describes feeling “ashamed” about his struggles with depression, before promising to “be back, stronger, better”.
Cudi writes: “It’s been difficult for me to find the words to what I’m about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.”
He continues: “Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges. I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I would’ve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a raging violent storm inside of my heart at all times. [I don’t know] what peace feels like. [I don’t know] how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I don’t trust anyone because of it and I’m tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling.”
“Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. I’ll be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. I’m sorry.”
Cudi left West’s GOOD Music label in 2013, later accusing West of using his vocals on his ‘Yeezus’ album without permission. However the pair reunited to work on Kanye’s ‘The Life Of Pablo’ record, released in February of this year.
In a 10-tweet rant last month, Cudi accused West of not writing his own music while also alleging that he and Drake turned their back on his career.
Listen to Kid Cudi’s new collaboration with Pharrell Williams, titled ‘Surfin’, off upcoming album ‘Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin’.