The rapper revealed that he's now been off cocaine for two years
Kid Cudi has discussed his struggles with mental health, saying that “for a long time, I wasn’t happy when I woke up in the morning”.
The rapper, who recently teased a mysterious new project ‘Asterisk Collective‘, was speaking on the Facebook chat show Red Table Talk when he opened up about his personal issues.
Cudi – whose real name is Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi – said that fame and expectations from fans and music industry figures resulted in a decline in his mental health.
“That’s where most of the bad stuff came in,” he said. “I have to live up to be this person, and I don’t feel like that. It’s like doing a comedy but you’re miserable.
“It’s like my life was like this show and I was always supposed to be on. But when the show was over, I was completely miserable. For a long time, I wasn’t happy when I woke up in the morning.”
Cudi also touched on his past issues with drugs, saying that he used to take cocaine alone and hid the habit from friends. “It was a very private thing,” he said. “I was dealing with my shit alone. I never did drugs around a bunch of people.”
He continued: “I really went out my way to keep what I was going through hidden because I was ashamed. I think that’s why I quit the first time because I got arrested then everybody knew about it. But I didn’t quit for the right reasons. I didn’t quit because it wasn’t good for me.”
Now clean from drugs for two years, Cudi said of getting sober: “I was really worried, and I kinda like had that moment where I was just like, ‘Do I really wanna get back on drugs and do cocaine again?
“Do I really wanna go back on this journey at 32?’ I woke up one morning, and I was just thinking like, ‘Man, this isn’t healthy. And I don’t know what else to do but get some help and find some place I can go.’ And I found a place.”
You can watch the full Red Table Talk broadcast above.
“Taking my time w it tho but I’m thinking next year sometime,” he said when one of his Twitter followers asked when they could hear new music
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