“When the show was over, I was completely miserable”: Kid Cudi opens up about mental health and drug use

The rapper revealed that he's now been off cocaine for two years

Kid Cudi has discussed his struggles with mental health, saying that “for a long time, I wasn’t happy when I woke up in the morning”.

The rapper, who recently teased a mysterious new project ‘Asterisk Collective‘, was speaking on the Facebook chat show Red Table Talk when he opened up about his personal issues.

Cudi – whose real name is Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi – said that fame and expectations from fans and music industry figures resulted in a decline in his mental health.

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“That’s where most of the bad stuff came in,” he said. “I have to live up to be this person, and I don’t feel like that. It’s like doing a comedy but you’re miserable.

“It’s like my life was like this show and I was always supposed to be on. But when the show was over, I was completely miserable. For a long time, I wasn’t happy when I woke up in the morning.”

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Cudi also touched on his past issues with drugs, saying that he used to take cocaine alone and hid the habit from friends. “It was a very private thing,” he said. “I was dealing with my shit alone. I never did drugs around a bunch of people.”

He continued: “I really went out my way to keep what I was going through hidden because I was ashamed. I think that’s why I quit the first time because I got arrested then everybody knew about it. But I didn’t quit for the right reasons. I didn’t quit because it wasn’t good for me.”

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Now clean from drugs for two years, Cudi said of getting sober: “I was really worried, and I kinda like had that moment where I was just like, ‘Do I really wanna get back on drugs and do cocaine again?

“Do I really wanna go back on this journey at 32?’ I woke up one morning, and I was just thinking like, ‘Man, this isn’t healthy. And I don’t know what else to do but get some help and find some place I can go.’ And I found a place.”

You can watch the full Red Table Talk broadcast above.

Meanwhile, after collaborating with Kanye West with the acclaimed Kids See Ghosts earlier this year, Kid Cudi recently told fans he had begun working on his next LP.

“Taking my time w it tho but I’m thinking next year sometime,” he said when one of his Twitter followers asked when they could hear new music

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