Speaking to The Sun, the singer recently said: “I shouldn’t have been able to do as many shows as we did, if I’m honest about it, if I’m brutally honest about it.”
“Going out and putting that happy smile on my face and singing the songs, honestly, sometimes it was like putting on one of those costumes, going out there and, underneath the costume, people don’t really see what’s going on,” he added.
Payne went on to reveal that his mental health struggles were the reason for cancelling a show in Belfast during 2015. It was announced at the time that Payne had been “taken suddenly ill”.
However, now Payne has said that he was struggling to cope following a split from his then-girlfriend Sophia Smith.
“I let it get to me that day. I wasn’t in a good place. And unfortunately I was going through a rough time and I let it get to me a little bit too much. That was it,” he said.
Payne added that he feels like a “totally different person now to how I used to be about it”.
“Even though I know fans are not mad about [One Direction’s hiatus]… we needed it,” he said. “We needed a little bit of time away from each other. We needed a realisation point to find the love for it again, rather than it just becoming a job.”
FOR HELP AND ADVICE ON MENTAL HEALTH:
- YOUNG MINDS – The voice for young people’s health and wellbeing
- CALM – The Campaign Against Living Miserably for young men
- Time To Change – Let’s end mental health discrimination
- The Samaritans – Confidential support 24 hours a day
- MIND – The National Association For Mental Health