Lily Allen opens up about post-natal depression and her reasons for sleeping with female escorts

"I had postnatal depression and my marriage was deteriorating"

Lily Allen has discussed her thoughts and reasoning behind sleeping with female escorts in the past, after details from her new book were leaked earlier this week.

In an attempt to beat the tabloid to the story, Allen wrote about her experiences on Instagram, admitting she was “lost and lonely” while touring her widely-derided ‘Sheezus’ album.

“Sooo, in my book ‘My Thoughts Exactly’ (out on 20th Sept) I detail some stuff from my dark days, around the ‘Sheezus’ era,” she writes. “I slept with female escorts when I was on tour, cause I was lost and lonely and looking for something. I’m not proud, but I’m not ashamed. I don’t do it anymore. The Mail are gonna run with the story tomorrow cause someone leaked it, and they’re bound to make sound worse than it was. Just wanted to give you Er, the ‘heads up’.”


Now, in a new interview with The Project, she has shed more insight into her life at the time.

“It’s not like steamy, raunchy – although that’s what the tabloids have made it out to be, as a ‘lesbian prostitute sex romp’ which I guess it was in a way,” said Allen. “It was more about a period of time that I was feeling incredibly lonely and sort of at my wits end. I was looking for anything. Looking for an outlet.”

She added: “It’s not really a salacious sex story, it’s more about hotel rooms and being on my own and being very far away from my kids and my husband.

“I’m a big advocate for having no shame. In retrospect, I know what was going on. I think I had postnatal depression and my marriage was deteriorating and I found outlets to deal with all of that.”

Allen’s new book is described as ‘depicting a life of chaos’ in which Allen ‘depended on drink, drugs and sex to get through the days.’ Allen’s essays will explore her struggles of depending on love to forge an identity, and her dependence on music to help her find herself.


It’s also set to include discussions of ‘feminism, the tabloids, money, faking orgasms, bad managers, fame, sexual abuse, mental health, narcissism, co-dependency, festivals, motherhood, stalking and parking tickets.’ You can pre-order it here.

Speaking of the memoir, Allen said: “Some of it I think might be uncomfortable and shocking and brutal. There will be good stuff in there too, happy times. I will try and make it funny.

“I know it’s about me but I hope that a lot of it will ring true with anyone who reads it,” she continued. “It won’t be written with shame. It will be true.”

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