Rapper discusses break up of long-term relationship and early abortion
Nicki Minaj has said she revealed things on her new album ‘The Pinkprint’ that she’d never dared shared with fans before, including details of a painful break up with her partner of 11 years Safaree Samuels.
The rapper also discussed an early pregnancy that ended in abortion when she was dating an older man from Queens while attending the prestigious Manhattan performing-arts high school LaGuardia, calling it a decision that has “haunted me all my life”.
She said: “I thought I was going to die. I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I’d ever gone through. It’d be contradictory if I said I wasn’t pro-choice. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t have anything to offer a child.”
“One of my goals was to give people a glimpse into my personal life, because it’s something I’ve kept very private,” Minaj told Rolling Stone. “I had to learn to do something as simple as sleep alone. I struggled with ‘Do I express these feelings?’ And I decided there’s no reason for me to hide. I’m a vulnerable woman, and I’m proud of that.”
Minaj said she first rapped about the experience on a mixtape track called ‘Autobiography’, which she said she “didn’t expect anyone to hear”. “[Now] millions of people are gonna hear it. And you gotta watch everything you say — people find an issue with every fucking thing,” she said.
The rapper added, however, that none of this has strayed her from her mission of inspiring girls to be smart and sexy. “With a video like ‘Anaconda,’ I’m a grown-ass fucking woman! I stand for girls wanting to be sexy and dance, but also having a strong sense of themselves,” she said. “If you got a big ol’ butt? Shake it! Who cares? That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be graduating from college.”
Nicki Minaj recently released a 16-minute short film that features three tracks taken from ‘The Pinkprint’, which was released last month. ‘The Pinkprint Movie’ is directed by Taylor Cohen and Francesco Carrozzini, and stars Minaj as a woman experiencing the breakdown of a relationship. The piece is divided into three parts –’The Crying Game’, ‘I Lied’ and ‘Grand Piano’ – with each section scored by the album track of the same name. Watch the behind-the-scenes video below.