Professor Green has admitted his father’s suicide has made him scared of becoming a dad himself.
The London rapper, 27, who releases his second album ‘At Your Inconvenience’ on October 28, is due to make his X Factor debut this evening (October 22) with rising star Emeli Sande.
Talking to The Sun about the death of his dad in 2008, he said: “That’s a hard topic. It scares the life out of me. I don’t want to be my dad — but there’s no reason for me to be.
“The fact my dad committed suicide is always going to be there. I’m better at coping with it than I have been but it will always be there.
He was referring to the prospect of settling down with long-term girlfriend Candy McCulloch, daughter of Echo And The Bunnymen frontman Ian McCulloch.
“That’s one of the things that scares me about being with Candy,” he added. “It has the chance to be really real with her.
“That thought about my dad has affected relationships in the past. But I can’t keep making decisions based on fear. Candy’s proper — she puts up with me for starters.
Professor Green, real name Stephen Manderson, was raised by his gran Patricia from the age of one after his mum had him when she was just 16. His dad drifted in and out of his life.
He also revealed he’s envious of Candy’s relationship with her parents.
“Her mum’s wonderful as well. Seeing Candy’s relationship with her mum, it’s different to what I have ever known. She speaks to her every day. I’ve never had that with any of my family.
“Candy is very much Ian’s daughter. I’ve met him a couple of times – he’s got a vibe man. He’s crazy. It’s always an intimidating one meeting the parents. There is a presence about him – he’s a frontman.”