Actor Evan Rachel Wood has shared her experiences of domestic abuse and self harm in a powerful Instagram post accompanied with the hashtag #IAmNotOK.
The Westworld star posted images from a photoshoot yesterday (Monday March 11), along with a caption that reads: “The day of this photoshoot, I was so weakened by an abusive relationship. I was emaciated, severely depressed, and could barely stand. I fell into a pool of tears and was sent home for the day. #IAmNotOk”
She expanded over a number of other posts, one of which shows what appear to be self-harm scars. “2 years into my abusive relationship I resorted to self harm. When my abuser would threaten or attack me, I cut my wrist as a way to disarm him. It only made the abuse stop temporarily. At that point I was desperate to stop the relentless abuse and I was too terrified to leave.”
Wood also posted a video message, along with a link to a new Instagram page set up for the #IAmNotOK movement. She has also invited other survivors of domestic violence to share their stories.
“I think about it every day in one way or another,” she says in the video. “I am not OK because no matter how much work I do I’m still searching for some kind of peace, and still searching to feel safe and I’m still trying to put all of this behind me but I don’t know if I’ll ever fully be able to do that. I’m not OK because I don’t remember what it feels like to not be scared.”
Many on Twitter have taken up the #IAmNotOK movement, including Wood herself.
— #iamnotOK (@iamnotokMVMT) March 11, 2019
#IAmNotOk because I will never see justice. I didnt process and recover from my trauma in time and the SOL prevents me from reporting. So please dont keep telling me to go to the police or press charges. I cant.
I can only try and make sure it doesnt happen to others. 💜
— #EvanRachelWould (@evanrachelwood) March 12, 2019
Wood also discussed the movement with fellow actor Dax Shepherd on his podcast ‘Armchair Expert’. “When it happens it’s very complicated,” she said. “You lie to yourself, you’re being lied to, you’re being gas-lit in a dangerous situation. You lose a sense of self and your sense of reality because you’re stuck in this nightmare.”